H I S T O R Y

I’ve been away too far for too long; now I need to be in His presence, under His grace, wrap in His love and mercy. I realize that when people judge me, it’s their right, because they don’t know me, they don’t care about what I’ve been through.

What matter most is, despite what happens in and on my life, one thing I know for sure is He loves me unconditionally. He always always always gives me a second chance. Knowing that, breaks my heart. Know that I am loved by my Father, deeply, madly, and widely. This brings me back to the heart of worship, knowing that it’s all about Him, His goodness, mercy, favor and love. It’s about History (His-Story).

It’s Him who’s been there and will always be there through my ups and downs, through thick and thin, through every season, it’s all about Him.

Thank you for teaching me to love myself enough, to refuse for second best. Thank you for making me strong enough not to settle for less, not let labels and emotional blackmails hold me back. It may mean making some hard decision, but short-term pain is better that long term disappointment and heartbreak.

Today, because of His love I’m bold enough to start writing History in my life through this blog. What He has done, what He’s doing and what He’s going to do in and through my life, even though it seemed crazy to willingly put myself out there. By doing that, it means I give people access to my life and I am bound to receive criticism I didn’t ask for, that will make me feel uncomfortable. It’s vulnerable and intimidating, yet, weighing those things up, I finally decided that I do want to step out and let people in.

However, I’m still human.  I sometimes made mistake, wrong decision and wrong behavior. I’m not perfect, but I’ll try my best to be a better version of me according to His words, His image. Whatever people say, do or think about me is not gonna stop me to testify His goodness. You can mock me, talk about bad things, backstab me, intimidate me and whatsoever, I’m not gonna hate you, I’m not gonna confront you. I’ll let my God take part and defend me, my part is to pray for you and believe that the best is yet to come.

I am loved,

Meryl Saragih